wikkidpissah
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Havent seen it in decades, am almost afraid to for fear it will lessen the impact it had on me, but it will get my #1 for the year.
Of all things, ever asking "Why?" is most responsible for who i am. My mother almost left me on the sidewalk rather than answer all the why questions coming from my stroller.
And, of course, women and that feeling they cause inside are the biggest why of all. Throughout my life, i've infuriated every woman i've known by, unlike any other man, remembering everything they've ever said to me. Wisdom keeps me from telling them that it's not love but curiosity which makes that so. Through the course of almost every relationship i've had, i regularly watch them sleep to better know. Of course, i always tire of them rapidly because there is only so much to know about anyone and it's only my feelings that are eternally quizzical. It's fair to say i only stuck with my Mary for a dozen years because there was no seeming end to the horror ride of her personality.
I remember when "Last Tango in Paris" came out. Because being a runaway had led me to a few communes i had been with more than my share of girls, but i was still a teenager and hadn't a clue. I simply couldnt believe that there was so many layers and this bouncing off that to make sickness & joy so close to being the same thing and all that and, sans butter, that kinda became my map to the borders of sex & love. Within a year, i was on rock tours and got all the experiments & exigencies i could ever dream of and developed a sexual personality which availed others almost as well as it did me for the next score of years.
By '89 tho, the life questions creeped in. I was long w my Mary by then but we broke up so often I was almost able to plan on going back to my married ladies & cokewhore cocktail waitresses & plane hostesses. But it was hollow, sorta, and i could see the years where i wasnt going to be able to keep the pace and was gonna need to know what i was going to do forever. And two movies - probably my #s 1 & 2 for the year - S,L & V and When Harry Met Sally, came out which asked where & how one kept the good & bad of love in their heart in order to have a peaceful & fulfilling life. And i will always be grateful those flicks were there when i needed to figure my #### out. I made my Mary mine once they helped me with my questions and those who read what i write about her know i made the right choice. She'll be dead 22 years on Friday and i dont think my heart would be strong and open enough for dealing with my current time without the tests of those years.
That's what movies can do, so you'll pardon me if i never give 30 points to an eye#### fanboy flick. nufced
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