****Official**** depression thread (2 Viewers)

[El Floppo]

Hi!

I may have posted long ago. but I guess I have depression and anxiety and am on meds going on a few years now.

am having issues downstairs and not happy with that, so I cut back, but I need to be on full time;. I know this as ive tried to cut back a few times and my wife notices. grrrrrr

Have you tried other meds? I know different meds affect people differently. I had a similar problem with something I was on years ago but not with others.

I have not. hate going to ther doc. but maybe I should or at least let them know

Definitely see the doc and let them know. That's what they're there for. Good luck!

 

[El Floppo]

Speaking of docs... I have something called cough variant asthma. When I got any cold or allergies, the post nasal drip triggers a terrible, ever worsening cough. Wakes me (and wife) up all night, continues throughout the day at work. My specialist doctor is trying- but my insurance won't cover anything I know from experience works, and will only cover stuff that I know doesn't or haven't tried yet. On my 3nd new med- after having to fight to get each one... Getting worse and worse as the days turn into weeks with nothing. And it doesn't work.

So not sleeping and feeling like **** isnt helping my lifelong fight with depression. Plus my depression gets in the way of battling to get what's right for me with docs/insurance, including getting PT for my Achilles which has kept me from running and has put me at the most out of shape I've been in my life.

But worse is my mom's ALS, which is ****ing wrecking me.. obviously not as much as it's doing to her. The coughing wakes me up, and then I'm thinking about her and just spiral.

My kids are genuinely thriving, work has been good and life is ok I guess. But it's been a real, awful battle.

 

[KGB]

Speaking of docs... I have something called cough variant asthma. When I got any cold or allergies, the post nasal drip triggers a terrible, ever worsening cough. Wakes me (and wife) up all night, continues throughout the day at work. My specialist doctor is trying- but my insurance won't cover anything I know from experience works, and will only cover stuff that I know doesn't or haven't tried yet. On my 3nd new med- after having to fight to get each one... Getting worse and worse as the days turn into weeks with nothing. And it doesn't work.

So not sleeping and feeling like **** isnt helping my lifelong fight with depression. Plus my depression gets in the way of battling to get what's right for me with docs/insurance, including getting PT for my Achilles which has kept me from running and has put me at the most out of shape I've been in my life.

But worse is my mom's ALS, which is ****ing wrecking me.. obviously not as much as it's doing to her. The coughing wakes me up, and then I'm thinking about her and just spiral.

My kids are genuinely thriving, work has been good and life is ok I guess. But it's been a real, awful battle.

I'm happy your kids are doing great! I know thats very important to me

im new to this game. thats all I know.

 

[GoBirds]

Hey thank you guys for the great input on this and getting me comfortable giving it a shot. I’m on the minimal dose and I feel it has started to really help balance out the anxiety as well as improve energy throughout the day. Another benefit I didn’t expect was curbing my appetite making transitioning to healthy eating much easier. Thanks guys for the input and advice not to be afraid to try it.

Just wanted to check in and see how it's going. NBD if you don't want to share, you don't owe anyone an update. Sending good vibes* your way, brother man.

Spoiler

*which is another way of saying I'm praying for you but just in case you're not a higher power kind of guy,,,,,

Bobby much appreciated my friend! Doing well, navigated some really challenging work deals and feel like I’m in a much better spot. How are things on your end, hopefully all is well?

 

[BobbyLayne]

Hey thank you guys for the great input on this and getting me comfortable giving it a shot. I’m on the minimal dose and I feel it has started to really help balance out the anxiety as well as improve energy throughout the day. Another benefit I didn’t expect was curbing my appetite making transitioning to healthy eating much easier. Thanks guys for the input and advice not to be afraid to try it.

Just wanted to check in and see how it's going. NBD if you don't want to share, you don't owe anyone an update. Sending good vibes* your way, brother man.

Spoiler

*which is another way of saying I'm praying for you but just in case you're not a higher power kind of guy,,,,,

Bobby much appreciated my friend! Doing well, navigated some really challenging work deals and feel like I’m in a much better spot. How are things on your end, hopefully all is well?

Good to hear.



I've been mostly OK.

Lions are having a good offseason, and I am surrounded by amazing supportive people.

Spoiler: But...

I got verbally assaulted on public transportation yesterday. Lasted around 5-7 minutes; unhinged (& likely unhoused) dude went off bc I gave him a low key how you doin' as a I slid past him on the bus. He was already experiencing psychosis, getting himself worked up at an unseen adversary. Apparently an acknowledgement of his existence was enough of an excuse to go DEFCON 1.

The bus was mostly empty. Apathetic driver, one other veteran upfront on the opposite side, 85 y.o. woman with a granny cart in front of me, teenage boy in the rear section. I like to sit in the single seats opposite the rear exit. The perp was seated but jumped up when I was about to go past and made himself wide.

Initially he let me go past and get settled, then he rushed over and was glowering over me. Didn't touch me, but close enough I caught some spittle spray. Loud af, shouting obscenities and threats. The endorphins hit the opiate receptors, I was flooded with adrenaline. Surprisingly, was able to process the threat and my options. Normally when I feel an adrenaline rush I cannot have coherent thoughts; yesterday everything went into slow motion.

• driver is looking up frequently, but grinning like this is a funny only-in-NYC thing; won't get any help there
• Vet is closely monitoring, he's ready to come over but assessing if it's going to escalate; he's significantly larger than me or the assailant but too far away; not gonna get there in time
• dude keeps pacing, returning to a dirty cloth Target bag, blousing the top like he's checking the contents - possible weapon?
• I can def take the guy but that's not my preferred style; gave up fisticuffs 40+ years ago, but in nanoseconds I ran through the choices
  • was a rainy day, I have a small weighty - jab to the solar plexus should be enough to stun him enough to have to gather my stuff and bolt
  • the umbrella has enough girth a blow to the jaw could work but I'm in tight quaters
  • pull toward me next time he comes in close & jab his eyeballs with index/pinky fingers (if he gets ahold of me I'm seated and cornered, not good)
  • use the pole for leverage to get up quickly, accelerate & launch, come down on the outside of his knee with my boot (pops the ligament but if i whiff i'm off balance)
• I have noise canceling headphones which is probably helping me a lot here bc I'm able to tune out his vitorol; he may have a weapon somewhere but his words can't hurt me
• I'm not legal expert on self-defense but choosing violence def could result in arrest, jail, or more hassle than I want to deal with.

Was able to extricate and walk the last 10 minutes. Hit the bell when he was pacing away from me and walked deliberately to the rear doo, keeping him in my peripheral. Walked quickly to the front, my plan was to hop back on if he followed me off. He didn't. Got even with the driver - bus hasn't pulled out yet - and yelled WHAT! THE! ****!!!

Walked 10 minutes to the VA. After 45 minutes or so I was sufficiently calm to share with my PTSD group. My one-on-one therapist carved out a half hour for me after lunch to help me process what happened. On the bright side, I was not harmed, was able to assess and then make a good choice. But what a load of crap to deal with, eh?

I'm staying home today. Bit farther than I wish to walk (4.9 miles) and this is the 2nd time I've been assaulted on public transportation in the last 6 months. Think I'll look into getting a bike.

 

[Long Ball Larry]

Don’t suppose anyone has ever tried trans-cranial magnetic stimulation?

 

[Rattle and Hum]

Don’t suppose anyone has ever tried trans-cranial magnetic stimulation?

Yes. Didn't do anything for me but ymmv. My therapist stopped it with a couple sessions to go. It's not painful or anything. Research those that need to repeat the process down the road when the first series was deemed beneficial.

 

[shuke]

Don’t suppose anyone has ever tried trans-cranial magnetic stimulation?

My wife went in for an evaluation for it, and it all seemed like a sales pitch to us. This was the same clinic that convinced her that ketamine infusions were the answer. Hint: they weren't.